More Updates....

I went to my OB appt last Friday because my HCG level was extremely high... over 100K. We found out that I have a molar pregnancy which is when the placenta is still there which caused the HCG to be so high. My OB scheduled for a D&C to be done on the same day... Friday evening because the doctor stated that the placenta may be cancerous if we just waited for it to naturally miscarried. I have to go back for a follow up as they are doing a biopsy of the placenta to make sure it isn't cancerous otherwise we will have to wait for a year to conceive again. This has been such a roller coaster for us over this past half year. I thought it was not as dramatic as the first time because I didn't see the fetus, but yesterday night, this second pregnancy hit me just as hard. I guess I finally realized I miscarried again and my chances of miscarriage increases. I know you guys are saying we are young and there is always next time, but each time it is just as dramatic and frightful. I know friends and family who had miscarried, but at least they have one child that survived. I feel so lonely going through this eventhough DH is going through this with me and just as harm on him as on me. We will continue to try and the thought that I will not be able to have a child though I don't have an inferility problem. I am sure this is just as tough for those that have inferility problems. We really don't know how others feels if we are not in their shoes. Right now, we are going through a lot emotionally, mentally, physically, and financially.

I just want to thank Marisa for the lovely flowers. I am stopping my crafting for awhile. I still have so much other things to catch up on and emotionally and mentally I am drained. This may be the last post for awhile.