More Updates....

I went to my OB appt last Friday because my HCG level was extremely high... over 100K. We found out that I have a molar pregnancy which is when the placenta is still there which caused the HCG to be so high. My OB scheduled for a D&C to be done on the same day... Friday evening because the doctor stated that the placenta may be cancerous if we just waited for it to naturally miscarried. I have to go back for a follow up as they are doing a biopsy of the placenta to make sure it isn't cancerous otherwise we will have to wait for a year to conceive again. This has been such a roller coaster for us over this past half year. I thought it was not as dramatic as the first time because I didn't see the fetus, but yesterday night, this second pregnancy hit me just as hard. I guess I finally realized I miscarried again and my chances of miscarriage increases. I know you guys are saying we are young and there is always next time, but each time it is just as dramatic and frightful. I know friends and family who had miscarried, but at least they have one child that survived. I feel so lonely going through this eventhough DH is going through this with me and just as harm on him as on me. We will continue to try and the thought that I will not be able to have a child though I don't have an inferility problem. I am sure this is just as tough for those that have inferility problems. We really don't know how others feels if we are not in their shoes. Right now, we are going through a lot emotionally, mentally, physically, and financially.

I just want to thank Marisa for the lovely flowers. I am stopping my crafting for awhile. I still have so much other things to catch up on and emotionally and mentally I am drained. This may be the last post for awhile.

Update....

The scare is over. Well, we went to see the doctor and we didn't see a fetus on the ultrasound. Dr. thinks I already had a natural miscarriage and the fetus never formed. I have to get some blood test done. I have been bleeding, not heavy, for the past few days, but I didn't have any major cramping or pain which is a good sign. Emotionally and physically I am doing fine after seeing the doctor and got the answer. There is no more worries.

Because of what was happening this past week, I didn't get to do any father's day cards and I probably won't be making any at this time. I will not be blogging for a little bit during my recuperating period.

Happy Father's Day to all the Dads!

A Scare Yesterday...

This is actually Wednesday after midnight. I woke up in the middle of the night to use the restroom which is common since I have been drinking a lot of fluids. The scary part was there was pinkish blood when I wipe myself. I totally freak out. There was minor spotting as appeared on my sanitary pad in the morning. I was too scared to use the bathroom in the morning because of what may happen. When I did went in the morning it was brownish when I did wipe. The spotting seemed to have disappeared in the evening, but still a little slight brownish residue spots on the sanitary pad this morning. There was nothing major to send me to the ER yesterday. I didn't feel any severe cramping or pain, just slight pulling, sore, or pricking pain on the abdominal area. I didn't vomit, but feel a little nauseated, but otherwise felt ok.

I am putting myself on bed rest and no crafting until I feel better and checking with the physician. I am praying nothing is wrong, for this is so scary for me after the first time. I must try to keep my spirits positive and myself relax. This is all in God's hand right now.

June Card Swap

Finally finish my June card swap with a some gals on SCS. I am the hostess for this month and this is my card. I am so glad everything came together. I had the stamped image and dp selected for a month now and finally got around to do the sketch layout, coloring the image, and cs color choices. I used the Penny Black Hedgehog. Don't you just love this stamp, Harvey (I named him) the Hedgehog is just having a wonderful, relaxing day. I added some yellow flock on the center of the flower for texture.

Today is also my American birthday. My Chinese birthday is not until October. I am so bliss to be pregnant this year as said by my friend, Teresa. I feel really bliss to be "a mom to be", my my health, and my family and friends around me. I am very fortunate and grateful for all I have though it may be tough at times.

This is what I received from my brother and SIL. Isn't this just sweet of them. I love it. The front has "Marked with Love", Charlotte's full name, and birthdate. The inside is a baby stoller bookmark. Yesterday, I spoke with Audrey and she was sad because she misses me. How cute is that! I love her and miss her too. Hopefully, I will to visit them in mid-September. It's been almost 4 months since I went to California. I will not be travelling until I know my pregnancy is going well. That reminds me, I need to call for my OB appointment next week or the week after.

Recipe:

Stamp: Penny Black

Ink: Stazon Jet Black

Paper: DCWV yellow texture cs, purple cs (received from a swap), American Craft dp

Accessories: prismacolor pencils, baby oil, ribbon, and stampendous yellow ducky flock

June, Already!!

June is here, another month gone. I finally did my June month swap card. I just have to finish making them and sent out the packages to my group members. Hopefully, I will have it done by today otherwise Monday. I can't wait to post it up after I am all done.

My brother and SIL sent me a wonderful gift for my birthday. There are photos of my adorable nieces, Audrey and Charlotte. They also sent me a very cute bookmark which was Charlotte's red egg and ginger party favor which I wasn't able to attend. You guys made my day yesterday and what a wonderful birthday gift! I will have to take a picture and post it up.

Have a wonderful month as summer is just around the corner.

May Card Swap

I am at clinic today getting most of this month's entries into Quickbooks. Thank godness this month is ending as production was/is really bad. I hope it picks up next month or else we have to take extra measures to cut down on the expenses.

I belong to a monthly card swap on SCS. July is our last month and I don't think I will sign up again for another 6 months as my back is killing me from all that couching. This is my take on the May card swap. I made a flap card, the tutorial is on SCS. There is actually a magnet used to help keep the card closed. I hid it under the dp. The stamp is Elyzbell. As you can see, I am in love with drawing dots lately. Every card has to have some dots. I have to use my white gel pen. I actually bought myself another white inkssential pen because it works so well and got rid off the old white pen I had. Anways, I need to make 6 more of this card and start on the June card swap as I am the hostess. I still haven't decide what my card sketch will be yet, but I have all the images, dp, and embellishments already.

Recipe:

Stamps: Elyzbell, A Muse sentiment

Ink: Memories black dye ink

Paper: red Brazzil, dp, yellow DCWV, sand cs inside

Accessories: prima flowers, diamond stickles, inkssential white pen, red copic spica pen, tombow markers

A MUSE May Bumper Card

I received this adorable May bumper card from Christine Gagnon aka ChippySue on A Muse Addict. I have this stamp also. Isn't she is just so darn cute. The stamp is Elzybell stamp which is part of the A Muse line.

Yesterday was Memorial Day and DH and I spent a quiet weekend at home. Yesterday, the cats saw a lizard outside the basement window. They were very intrigue by it, but off course to prevent the lizard from getting hurt we closed the window so he can't get in otherwise my cat will have a field day with him. I wanted to get a picture of it, but I time I went back to the basement, it was gone. DH and I have also been feed a neighborhood feral cat. We have been seen him around our house and the neighbors house for a couple of weeks now. We have been leaving can food for him and he has been eating it or something has been eating the can food. DH calls him our "outdoor cat" as we don't allow our other cats to wander outdoors by themselves.

I was trying to do my May and June monthly card swaps today, but my back is killing me while I was couching down to cut, adhere, and color. I just have to take it easy and just take extra breaks and do one or two cards per day until I get it done.